One of my resolutions for 2011 was to start meditating and practicing mindfulness. Soon, one quarter of 2011 will be gone already (time flies!) and so I thought it was time for an update on my trials.
The first 1,5 months of my trials, I was practicing roughly 4 evenings per week. I first followed some online guided meditations, then I started focusing on my breathing in silence for a set amount of time, and now recently I started to listen to guided meditations on my Ipod.
As I’ve been trying out different styles, I think different styles of meditation have their pros and cons.
+ Help me to focus on the voice
+ Can guide me to very deep relaxation
– Less “active”
– I tend to fall asleep
Focusing on breathing:
+ More active, I cannot relax and follow a voice
+ Makes me feel very “aware”
– My mind wanders terribly
– I don’t have a good timer, setting my cell phone stopwatch for 10 minutes is not the nicest way to have a meditation ended
The positive progress is that I’ve started to live more mindfully, or at least I’m trying to. I’m trying to point my focus on one thing at a time. I try to focus more on what I’m precisely doing when I’m eating or biking and I try to give my undivided attention when I”m talking to someone.
The negative progress is that I’ve been slacking off with the meditation practice for the past few weeks. These past weeks have been quite stressful and overly busy, so it would be great to clear my head with a short mindfulness exercise, regain focus and then get my work done. Unfortunately, old habits die hard and in my most stressful times I tend to slack off, procrastinate and panic.
Here’s a collection of websites with guided meditations:
http://integraleric.blogspot.com/2011/01/how-to-learn-to-meditate.html (although I”m still not getting the point of their audio file at all)